not my usual cup of tea...

I have no earthly understanding of why I was drawn to this today, but it struck me deep down somewhere. Found this on  another friends FB comment trail....

Lord give (fill in name here) the extra strength and courage to face whatever is coming her way. Give her the peace that passes all understanding and the Joy of Your presence as she walks through the trials that she is facing. Amen.

I feel like I was meant to read it, and maybe even use it in the future, so I thank the universe, the big man upstairs, the fates....whoever!

gripe session....

This week was stressful.

So many reasons why. I will just mention a few...

Finally had a showing for the house, was supposed to have two but one never showed. I spent my entire day with the dogs on leashes or stinking up my car and the realtor didn't have the decency to call to tell me they weren't gonna make it. Jerk!  I have been scared to leave the house, knowing that the minute I do I will get a phone call saying someone wants to show the house. Which means I have turn around, go home, get the dogs out and be gone again within an hour. Not an easy task, especially when you have run out of chocolate, or eggs, or chocolate eggs! hahaha


So that brings me to Easter...not a big deal in our household really. Don't get me wrong we love candy and think bunnies very are cute! But, we aren't what you'd call religious. Well, unless someone shouting a random "Jesus H Christ!" every now and then is now deemed religious behavior. Yeah, I doubted that too! Anyway, back to what I was gonna say...people will use just about anything as an excuse to get out of doing something and I find that very annoying!  Lately though I find myself thinking how nice it would be to come up with some sort of lame excuse one day and just not do a darn thing that was expected of me. I can think of plenty of excuses, many could be validated easily, and yet I apparently lack the "loserific lame excuse gene"... rendering me incapable of partaking in the occasional ditch day.  I still have this idea that I have to lead by example, though it seems to go unnoticed more often than not lately. And I think that's sad, not only because the people I am speaking of have so much potential that they don't even seem to be aware of, but mostly because they are grown adults that apparently aren't interested in bettering themselves.

And lastly, I struggled this week with unmotivated, passive, incompetent people. They always annoy me and mostly likely always will, but it makes it awesomely aggravating to know that these are the people that are supposed to be taking over my "jobs" when I move. And to top it off, I don't know when that will be. So passing off my jobs and providing training is increasingly difficult because we just don't know how long I will be available. The lack of urgency on others parts, even though I mention on a daily basis that I am not going to be here for much longer, is seriously disturbing. I have made every effort to get people to step-up to the plate now rather than waiting but it just doesn't seem to be working. I would hate to see things falter upon my departure because of a lack of effort to ensure a smooth transition. I am aware that my system may not be ideal for whoever is going to takeover, however, it is a system that is easy to follow, extremely organized, easy to adapt, and most importantly -WORKS!

All I can do now is continue to try and hope that someone has a "light bulb moment" soon!

craziness, drama and crazy drama

Alright, so the past few months have been,  you guessed it completely awesome!...just not always in a good way. Lots of drama ensued, I almost resigned my positions within my roller derby league about 6 times, and came within a quarter of an inch of walking out, just flat out quitting without any notice with no plans of looking back a few times too. Something always seems to draws me back though. I think a lot of  it has to do with the fact that I very well could be in the Top 10 list of the Worlds Most Stubborn People, but upon some reflection over the past few days I've come to realize that the reason I have stayed as long as I have and dealt with all the drama, the fighting, the cattiness and what have you that comes whenever you have more than one woman in any room is simple. It comes down to love. Love of the game, love for my league, my friends, and especially the new girls that have yet to understand just how truly awesome a good, fun, properly functioning and well managed roller derby league can be.

Okay, now to be perfectly honest, it also has a whole lot to do with the fact that I absolutely refuse to be a witness , and god forbid, an enabler of a person on a power trip who really doesn't have anyone's best interest in mind but her own...but that's a whole other blog post.


Good news is...problems resolved! And the best part about it was that it pretty much resolved itself. What I will now refer to as "our problem child" quit the league, in a nasty,vengeful, huff while still attempting to create waves of drama on her way out, but hey whatever floats her boat! It was an epic fail anyway...every single other girl in the league came to our next practice just 2 days later. It was a beautiful sight, and I think the league will continue to grow stronger because of the challenges it's faced over the past few days, weeks and months.

I cried happy tears when she quit and have been in the best mood I've experienced in a very long time for the past 3 days.

Things just keep getting better around here!

Now, with a little less stress in that arena I can focus on the totally awesome (in a great way) aspect of the rest of my life...my husband and kids. Still, the stress of having a spouse living on the other side of the country right now, trying to sell a house, worrying about finding somewhere else to live if it sells quickly and finally moving across country this summer sometimes seem unbearable, but I'm doing it. Living day by day, looking toward the future and the awesomeness that's sure to unfold in the next chapter of my life.